Thursday, May 9, 2013

Life's little wisdoms .............. That I have learned ...........

I wrote this as an email to a friend. I did edit out bit's that would either identify them or where in the world I was speaking of............. to be fair to them and to me. The main reason I am posting this, is because, I think the wisdom's I am writing about are universal. In the next while, I will add the links to this blog, that I refer to here. Right now, I am to tired to do so..... As I am tired from the stress of not having a regular sleeping pattern over the last 9 weeks! I write this as much for me, as I did my friend. Thank you for reading my blog, it now has had over 11,560 odd hits. I am deeply grateful to you for this gift to me. Thank you :)

Ginger in your diet, would be beneficial to your digestive track. Cook it, in food, rather than eat it raw, it is a tad HOT!
Every morning and around 7 in the evening, boil Un-Fluoridated water, add a teaspoon of organic or manuka honey, with crushed ginger, thyme and a generous slice of lemon, squeezed into the mix, plus add the lemon, stir and this aids digestion and alkalises the body too. Plus it helps your kidneys to be more productive. 
Plus..................... If you put a teaspoon of bread soda in warm water everyday for a month and drink it. Then maintain it 3 times weekly, you will lose weight.
Trust me on this!
You agree the body is very wise? Well the natural state in our body is to be alkaline. However,
because we eat fries and shite processed foods, (Yes all processed foods including ALL Monsanto seeds/Products), our body becomes acidic. This in turn causes all kinds of illness for us humans, even cancer! Cancer, by the way, is a fungus. It can be cured simply by an alkaline diet/bread soda and raw natural foods. Do the research, if you don’t believe me!
This information is being suppressed by big pharmaceutical companies,  as they earn a minimum of 30,000 $ or € per patient with cancer! ++++++++
The fuckers!
If our bodies become too acidic this is what happens.............. The body naturally adds fat to our bodies, WHY?
Because, if our bodies did not build up fat, our organs would be destroyed by the acid build up. So because our bodies are so wise, (Always remember the body never lies and the heart always knows........) they naturally increase the fat content in our bodies to store the acid and to keep it away from our precious organs, to protect them from the hazardous danger of acid. Now do you see why you’ve put on weight.....................fries et al. 
I have tons of info on this! Plus on Fluoride, Chemtrails, HAARP, GWEN, Scalar weapons, vaccines, microwave radiation, Evil Monsanto, the Global Financial Crisis, which has been manufactured!! ++++++  Read my blog sometime. All that info is there! My blog is either deeply personal or political!
You will not see your children grow up to be a man/woman and see his/her children, if you do not change your eating habits! Use this, as motivation, if that’s your need!
Having said that, currently, I lack motivation!!!! See the advice I am giving you!! Everything I say, do, feel and think is 100% about me! 
Sit with this, until you get it.This is my current challenge! The paradox of being a Human Being!
However, I am struggling through this currently. I am aware, of what I say, do, feel and think!!
Since, I was 18 I have studied psychology informally and then did 5 years in college to learn more. I’ve learned more outside college than I did in college, however, I do not reduce the benefit of my formal education. However, life teaches us more, if we choose to learn. It’s all about Free Will at the end of every day!
I always thought it was extremely important to wake up to self and it is NB. However, it is equally important to wake up to the world we live in. When I was rearing my children, I used to talk to God and say, “I am so glad, I do not know what you know! In a sense it was a cop-out. However, it was where I was then. I could NOT have coped then, with what I now know. So when my youngest left home, I started to get brave....... yeah, in some ways I have always been brave, I would say, I am a courageous body................ However, after my youngest left home, I said to God, ok, show me a little more of what you know. He did, once I acclimatised to that information, which did come my way, I’d ask for more information and so it went on............ it is still on going. However, there are some dark places, I do not want to go to! As they are to close to the bone for me!
Maybe, someday, I will go there?!? I truly do not know.
Have the best life you can have, shine your light onto our world, our world needs your light. Be congruent, you’ll be authentic and folk will naturally hear and know this intuitively.
You are here in this time, because you have a purpose, you have a unique light to shine that is a God given gift. Shine!
When you shine, you give other’s the permission to do so too.
Yes, I hear and see what I am writing too.
This is life.......................
How better can it get..................... Red heart  Live from your heart.

Le meas.

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Me as I am...................

My bet is, tomorrow the weather in my world will be crap! Why? They have been spraying us heavily with chemtrails today! This breaks my heart! I am not a perfect human being, I smoke, and I drink wine, a part from that, I am a beautiful human being, who has always found it very difficult to “Fit into this world”. My huge paradox is, I am poisoning myself with all the chemicals in cigarettes, this I know. I smoke because when I was young, my life was extremely difficult and when the pain hit my throat, I felt it as way to over-whelming. I didn't have the life experience I now have to deal or cope with that pain. In my young days, in life in Ireland, NO ONE spoke about sexual, physical and emotional abuse, in fact then, those words were unheard of! They did not exist, therefore, my pain, did not exist, in Irish life’s reality, BUT, it did, in my reality! So I spent years and years doing all I could do, to understand, my pain, to heal my pain. It was like exploring in the dark, blind, to any light. In truth, it was a living fucking hell! I am rarely this graphic about my experiences in childhood! However, that is how my life was way back then! A living fucking hell! I shall never forget the torture of that pain. And when people say, “Forgive and Forget, to my mind, the “FORGET” part is bollocks, from that starting point! Now, it mostly does not intrude in my life. Thank God. 

How can I forget what formed me? I cannot forget, nor would I want to forget. It isn't that this is on my mind daily, it isn't  in truth. As time passed and I started to heal me, I would forget for a while and then as more time passed, I would heal more and then I would forget for longer periods each time! That’s when I knew, for sure, that what I was doing was healing me. It was one of the toughest journeys I've ever undertaken in my life. Doing your own inner work IS THE TOUGHEST  MOST PAINFUL WORK ANY HUMAN BEING CAN DO! Paradoxically, THE MOST REWARDING!

Forgiving, takes work. The way I learned to forgive goes like this…………….. If I do not forgive, it is shite I have to carry! No one else on this planet is aware, I feel as I do. Just me, I suffer this un-forgiveness! No one else! Just me! The person, I am un-forgiving towards is absolutely unaware that I have all this anger/angst/un-forgiveness towards them! Right? So the only body here that is suffering is me! Right? WHY? Why am I doing this to me? It beats Banagher………… (An Irish expression!). Trust me on this! When I was 15, I was walking over to Ballyphehane Church to go to Mass, early one morning. I cannot remember if it was during lent or on a Sunday morning, that is entirely irrelevant, in truth! But at the time, I hated one man, with a fucking passion. He was the person who had first abused me. Near to the Church, this voice came into my head, that said, and I quote……… “If you hate him, you will destroy your life”! To this day, I do not believe this was my voice. I was so young, as we all were in the mid 1970’s! The impact this voice had on me was immense. I knew with every fibre of my being that what the voice said to me, was absolute truth. (You see, my life to that moment had been filled with so many lies. And in my being, I knew this, yet this voice, spoke truth to me, how then, could I not listen to truth?).  This was truth and I knew it. Remember, you knew as a child/young teen when you were spoon fed lies! Actually, even in adulthood, we know it! Again, our choice is to acknowledge this or not! (Life is all about choice or Free Will….) From that moment on, I prayed fervently to forgive this man. In time, I did. I begged God to help me with this, he did and I will always be deeply grateful to God for this gift. For forgiveness is a gift to self, to no one else! Do NOT forget this! Later on, I realised, it was a harder task to forgive me. However, I used the same formula, I had to get to a place where I truly wanted and needed to forgive me and then, I prayed to God for the grace to forgive myself. Forgiveness is a huge gift to self. DO NOT FORGET THIS PLEASE! It is a life truism!

While I have healed almost all of these scares, the scares remain. Think of a physical scare, whether it be, sexual, physical, emotional, creative, behavioural, spiritual,  intellectual and psychologically! Oh don’t forget your attractiveness is a given! (These areas of self are called the nine expressions of self). Each scare you receive in any of these areas’ stay a scar. An open scar, if you choose not to heal any one of them! It is a natural law. Just look at any of your body scars! A scare remains on your body, psyche and soul, if we do not heal them for ourselves, they remain open, however, we can heal the scare. However, a scare remains, only as a pointer to where we have come from,  In my experience of life and I think, I have had a lot of life experiences in life, thus far, some more horrendous than others! Having said that, my life has been great in many other ways. For this, I am deeply grateful, to God, to life, to those who have assisted me in my journey and who have helped me to heal me and to my own courage to undertake this journey. You know, I once read someone, a prominent psychologist, whose name escapes me right now, say to a client, “Don’t come back, until your pain is really bad”. When I read this I was horrified. But you know what, it is a truism. No human being will ever do their own inner work, until their pain becomes so bad, that their only option is to look at it and deal with and heal their own pain! That my friends, is a life reality! IMHE.

Today a young man challenged me about why I get so upset about Chemtrails when I poison myself with all the chemicals in cigarettes. I took this on the chin, because he is absolutely right! This is challenging me recently, (long before he said this to me!), I see my own paradox! My reality is of my past fear returning to my throat! I'm not sure, I can deal with that all over again, silly you may say, and in some ways I agree with you, thus far though, I have not got past this irrational fear! And I know it to be irrational! Even more paradoxical, don’t you think? My bottom line here is, I know, I have more work to do in loving who I am. This is my imperfection. Yet, my uniqueness too. We are all the equal and opposite of what make us, individually us! This I truly believe. I am very aware, this is my issue, I need to deal with this, before my body’s wisdom, does it for me! That means, before I become ill. My body is already hinting this! As of now, I am mostly ignoring my body and in the depths of my being, it will be my Achilles heel, if I choose to do nothing about the fact that I have smoked cigarettes since I was 14 years old!

I don’t want or need to get ill! Seriously. I am mostly a very healthy Human Being/Person. Sometimes, I allow myself to get stressed out, to the point where I do not sleep! As has happened to me just now! What I am grateful for is that I now recognise my stress sooner now, than I used to! This is a gift to me and one I cherish hugely.

I think now, it doesn't matter what happens to me in life, what is most important is how I interpretate the happenings of the event/situations! I have learned, it doesn't matter what happens to me in life, what really matters is how I respond to the situation! No other person can hurt your soul, only you can do that! It is the inner most, deepest part of being a human being. So why do we hurt ourselves? Ain’t that the million dollar question for all Human Kind? The answer to this question is multi-dimensional, depending on how each of us interprets what has happened to us in this life, for good or bad! Suppose you look at life, in a clear class and see that nothing that you've experienced is bad! Wouldn't that be a blessing? Yes it would be a blessing! Well you can do this! All you need to do is change the old record in your head, and say, this is an opportunity for me to explore a different essence / part of me, rather than the old record, that says, Have I something invisible on my face that says, hit me! I know, I used to use the latter record! I changed this record, I've come to know, slowly, that all experiences are OPPORTUNITIES for me to grow as a unique individual. So why not, look at life this way?

For that's all it is, keep changing your own and world views. Yes, it was your story, but you can change your story any time you want and need to do so. Yes, the CHOICE is always yours! This takes self-responsibility. Not an easy task, I know, sure I am failing it, at the moment re giving up the cigarettes. And yet I become cross and broken hearted that others are poisoning us from the skies……. There is no congruence in this, in truth!

So is my memory of that horrendous childhood pain true now?
Ask yourself the same question!
I am!