Friday, December 14, 2012

The Paradoxical Dance of Life

Life is tough, I experience it as tough, at times. My over-whelming feeling of my experience of life is sadness. Yet, thank God, I am not a sad lady, I am grateful for this.

Life too is a paradox. I have many real and happy moments where I connect with other souls, who respond in kind to my humanness. There is NO greater buzz, real encounter then when another being of this life is being as real with me, as I with them. I really believe, no drug on this planet equates with this reality. My soul soars in these moments. And the happiness I receive has no monetary value; it is far beyond what the reality of life is. Least what I was taught when I was growing as a young child, adult-lesson............

My real learning began when I was at the near end of my twenties. Even though I could say and do say, I started learning about my inner self at 18 years of age. It was at that age I stated reading psychology. I had an enormous need to understand Human Behaviour. Only because, I had suffered so much under other’s behaviour towards me! 

I can say now, with the benefit of hind sight that my need was to understand who I am? What was I here to do? In the core of my being, I knew I had a job to do in this world; truthfully, I hadn’t a clue as to what that was! However, my deepest need was to explore both. 

I was very lucky in my young life to believe in God and to have a huge believe that the spiritual aspect of self was THE most important part of who I am. You have no idea, how much this belief saved me and protected me in my life to date. I shall probably not ever be able to explain this in words, it was an inherent feeling and one I have always trusted. And trust me, I haven’t trusted much in my life! Sometimes and maybe more than I care to acknowledge, I have not always trusted my core being. When I haven’t, I got myself into trouble! When I have, while it has been a VERY hard path to go down, it has always being, THE best path for me. Now at 51 years of age, I can still say it hurts and saddens me, however, IT HAS PROVEN TO BE THE ONLY WAY TO GO, FOR ME.

M. Scott Peck wrote a book called, The Road Less Travelled, which I read in 1989. The reason I remember the year, is because it was the year, my youngest daughter was born. It was also just prior to this, that I had realised my marriage was not a safe or an honouring place for me to be in. In many ways, this book was my catalyst. At the time though, I wasn’t as aware. You know, 20 20 vision........................................ Hind sight is a great gift, albeit a slow gift!   
Now travel forward 23 years............. time does pass very quickly, almost unbeknownst to me! 

In the interim years, my marriage broke up, I met a guy five years later, who lied through his teeth, he said he was single, in truth, he wasn’t! ( I so dislike lies, lies always hurt, more than truth!). Then I met who I call the love of my life. Why? Because even in an argument, I could see him as so beautiful, trust me, this was a rare gift to me. However, he was jealous and possessive and my inherent need is to be always free, to be who I am. So, our relationship ended. He is married to another now and I wish them both, much love and happiness. I am confident; he has found what he needed. 

Thereafter, I met two men........... the first guy, I loved. But because of our childhood wounds, we became suspicious of each other and the relationship failed. It was and is, what it is, however, to date, we are still good friends. I am grateful for this. The other guy, I dated on and off for 3 years and because of his childhood wounds, he found it difficult to be with me and lied and eventually, I discovered, as you do, that he was NOT the man for me. So I said goodbye to him, eventually.................... 

That was last August twelve months ago and then in December 2011 we met again, I foolishly believed him, only to discover days later that he was still being untruthful................ We parted on bad terms, but, so be it. I took it on the chin, however, for THE first time in my life, I decided, I would NOT collude with another’s bad behaviour! I know I hurt him and the women, he denied he was with.............. BUT, my reasoning was ............ FUCK HIM, if he thought, I’d walk away A SECOND TIME timidly.......Hello, NO! 

Believe it or not, but it is true, I needed to go to confession about this!
Because I knew in the bones of my being, I had hurt this other lady......... I took this to heart. 

OK ............ almost twelve months later...............I meet this man, via email, in circumstances, I could not have ever predicted............ Seriously.........!

We decide to meet for coffee........ at this time, I have given up coffee LOL!
Then I become aware that he lives two and a half hours from where I live and think........ he cannot travel that distance to where I live, for a cup of coffee! To be fair. So, I invite him to dinner at one O’ clock. 

I welcomed him to my home, as I would any another being. We ate dinner; it was very relaxed and warm. Sometime after dinner, intimacy creped in slowly, while watching my video of Dancing Differently. I felt it and I knew he did too. I felt he wanted to touch me, but he didn’t, not then. 

A while later, I was sitting on my kitchen island, he moved in between my legs.......... it was then, I knew, chemistry existed between us both. Gently this dawned. We kissed, gently, and the knowing grew, for me. For the first time, in a very long time, I knew, I was attracted to this man, there was chemistry between us and in the longest of times, I was sexuality excited with his presence to me..........................This was blowing my mind, not to mind my body! (And my core belief is, The Body does NOT lie!)

As fate would have it, a wee while later, reality dawned, as friend called, in the nick of time! Putting a FULL STOP to our meeting! He left.
I was later grateful to faith, later................. BUT, not then!

A few days later we arranged to meet again, in my home. In the days between, I realised that I was for the first time in a very long time, attracted to this man; it is rare that I am attracted to a man! Plus, there was a deep chemistry for me to him. Above all, I loved the way he kissed. A kiss tells me much and his had! The expectation of bliss lingered................ in my being.
To be dashed in utter disappointment, when he told he had another, friend, with benefits............... My heart sank with utter disappointment and later, I cried. Crying like being attracted to a man, are very rare commodities for me! 

Then I asked, days later, if he wanted a relationship? He phoned to say, NO, he did not want.
I heard him loud and clear............. I sank into disappointment again.
However, my truth being, I wanted and needed a relationship, after all, relationships are the stuff of life and living........... So yet again, in my life, I had to accept, his truth. My truth, being very different to his..............
Yet again, with sadness, I accepted reality.
His need, was not my need.
No blame.
It is time again, to move on!
But this time, knowing, I am honouring me.
Now, this is more important to me and to who I am.
I think, I have moved on.........although, I still feel its sting.
Still, my need is to honour who I am made to be ;)
So I bid him adieu, as my need is always now, to honour me.


Friday, December 7, 2012

We was brung up proper!

I just received this from a twitter pal Alex and thought I'd share it with you, so that you may be able to see the madness of the world we now live in, as opposed to the world I grew up in!

Thanks Alex :)

"And we never had a whole Mars bar until 1993"!!!
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE 1930's 1940's, 50's, 60's and early 70's !
First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us and lived in houses made of asbestos...
They took aspirin, ate blue cheese, raw egg products, loads of bacon and processed meat, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes or cervical cancer.
Then after that trauma, our baby cots were covered with bright coloured lead-based paints.
We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets or shoes, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking.
As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags.
We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle.
Take away food was limited to fish and chips, no pizza shops, McDonalds , KFC, Subway or Nandos...
Even though all the shops closed at 6.00pm and didn't open on a Sunday, somehow we didn't starve to death!
We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this.We could collect old drink bottles and cash them in at the corner store and buy Toffees, Gobstoppers, Bubble Gum and some bangers to blow up frogs with.
We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank soft drinks with sugar in it, but we weren't overweight because........
We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on.
No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O..K.
We would spend hours building our go-carts out of old prams and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes We built tree houses and dens and played in river beds with matchbox cars.
We did not have Playstations, Nintendo Wii , X-boxes, no video games at all, no 999 channels on SKY ,
no video/dvd films,
no mobile phones, no personal computers, no Internet or Internet chat rooms..........WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no
Lawsuits from these accidents.

Only girls had pierced ears!

We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever.

You could only buy Easter Eggs and Hot Cross Buns at Easter time...

We were given air guns and catapults for our 10th birthdays,

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just yelled for them!Mum didn't have to go to work to help dad make ends meet because we didn't need to keep up with the Jones's!

Not everyone made the rugby/football/cricket/netball team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!! Getting into the team was based on
Our teachers used to hit us with canes and gym shoes and throw the blackboard rubber at us if they thought we weren't concentrating .
We can string sentences together and spell and have proper conversations because of a good, solid three R's education.
Our parents would tell us to ask a stranger to help us cross the road. The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of.
They actually sided with the law!

Our parents didn't invent stupid names for their kids like 'Kiora' and 'Blade' and 'Ridge' and 'Vanilla' and 'Tiger'

We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL !

And YOU are one of them!
You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated our lives for our own good.
And while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave their parents were.
PS -The big type is because your eyes are not too good at your age anymore

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

The Children’s Right’s Referendum.

The Children’s Right’s Referendum.
The new amendment to the Irish Constitution states;
“42.A 1 . In exceptional cases, where the parents regardless of their material status, fail in their duty towards their children to such an extent that the safety or welfare of any of their children is likely to be prejudicially affected, the State as guardian of the common good, shall by proportionate means as provided by law, endeavour to supply the place of the parents, but always with due regard for the natural and imprescriptible rights of the child" 
In my opinion this is wide open to a judge’s interpretation.
I believe that this proposed amendment to our constitution does remove parental rights. Thus the rights of the family, which is NOW protected under our current constitution. The family and children already HAVE inalienable rights. So why change what is not broken?
Please do your own research, because it could be your children or grandchildren who will be affected by this new Children’s rights referendum. 

I will give you a few links below to read. It is vital you look at these with a clear mind and try to see the bigger hidden agenda of our untrustworthy Government.
I say this because what is now happening in our world is not right, it is not moral or ethical.
Ask yourself, would you trust the Irish State to care for your children? They do not love your child, if they did, why do we have such an appalling and horrific history in Irish State child care? 

Look at the history of the industrial schools, the Magdalene laundries, how many of our children have died in recent years in State care, 196 & over 90 committed suicide and look at the 100 or more children missing! 

What truly needs to be put in place are loving, compassionate and kind structures for families in crisis, not what we’ve had and certainly not amendments that are open to all kinds of interpretation by our court system! 

This is what is happening in the UK and this man I believe is a good man. We tend to always follow the UK!

The blog link above is from an Irish Solicitor that I admire. 

Frontline last night above. 

Please please do your own research. 

What follows are my own observations & if the truth be told I fear that the changing of the constitution in the Children’s Rights referendum will only seek to change more articles of our constitution further down the line, thus in time, diluting our inalienable rights, so that they are worth zilch, thereby dishonouring the very structures of The Family.

“2: The State shall, Therefore, endeavour to ensure that mothers shall not be obliged by economic necessity to engage in labour to the neglect of their duties in the home”
“2:1: In particular the State recognises that by her life within the home, woman gives the State a support without which the common good cannot be achieved.”

The above two articles are NOT being changed, to be clear, and they are very important articles in our constitution.
Now those of you who are feminists, please keep an open mind, as I give you my observations on what we may see and are seeing right now in our country.
In a year or two or three at the outset our Government are bringing in new amendments to the Social Welfare Consolidation Act, where a man or woman who is in receipt of One Parent Family Payment,
will have to sign on for Job Seekers Allowance when their youngest child reaches 14 years of age. Which means parents in receipt of One Parent Family Payment will NOT have the choice to stay at home and bring up their children during the most difficult time in their children’s lives, the teenage years! Now go and look at the two parts of the constitution I have quoted above!
Ask yourself why they will do this? I believe if they do bring in these changes in One Parent Family Payments, that it will be unconstitutional, given the two articles I’ve quoted above. To be clear, I am not a constitutional lawyer.
Now to something I found during last week and I was unaware of it’s existence. If by chance you are a separated person when your child reaches the grand age of 12 years of age and you go to apply for One Parent Family Payment, this is what you will be told & I quote................
“You do not qualify for One Parent Family Payment because you do not have a qualified child as per section 17 2 A (C) (1) of the Social Welfare (Consolidation) act 2005 as amended by the Social Welfare (Miscellaneous Provisions) at 2010. Your child was 12 at the time of your application for One Parent Family Payment, therefore you do not Qualify for this payment.”
You have the right to appeal this decision if you are not happy with it and have 21 days in which to appeal.
This change above was brought in to bring us in line with a European directive! Is what I was told when I asked why this had been changed!
Does the picture I see, seem any clearer to you?
Also, it is rumoured that the Government will Decrease Child Benefit, they cannot do this as of now, but can if they keep changing our constitution.
For those of us, and I am in this category, where Child Benefit is no longer a reality in your lives, remember Child Benefit was very important to us in our family budget, least it was to me, for back to school and Christmas. One Parent Family Payment may not have ever effected you, it didn’t me, however, it does affect hundreds of thousands of families in Ireland.
Children are precious Human Beings, your own grown up children are still very precious to you and I feel they are God’s eternal gifts to me. I don’t doubt you feel the same way.
I am writing this in the knowledge that I could get into trouble in the work I do! However, Right is Right, Moral is Moral, Ethical is Ethical.
Our children guarantee life’s future, which is an inherent desire for all parents/grandparents/aunts/ uncles etc.
By the way, in a lot of family realities, children in crisis family situations are fostered by other family members, Which is preferable in my opinion, however, this will cease with this new amendment. 
Children can and will be adopted in foreign counties. Thus ending the responsibility of our Government to them!
The above is a Wikileaks link where Irish children under the “care” of our Government ended up in brothels!
IF, this new Children’s Rights Referendum is passed, we will lose EVERYTHING our heart desires for life in Ireland and in our WORLD.
My reality is, only you can make up your own mind on all of this. However, if I do nothing, then I collude with immoral and in-ethical covert practice.
I can NOT be party to or collude with this..............WHY? Because one day, sooner or later (AND I HOPE LATER), I will meet my creator, my need is, that I have a clear
conscience when I meet God and stand before him and her and say “God, I did my best”. If I did not believe this, I promise you, I would NOT be writing this email.
I will post this email to my blog once I have sent this to you. Most of you know, if you know me, know my history and the challenges I had in my young and indeed older, life.
I have a huge need to say this to you all, my life has been a very sad life, yet, 98% of the time, I am NOT a sad Human Being. Those of you who know me and read my blog, will know, I was
In good faith, I present my own observations to you, 

Le meas,

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Author Willian Engdhal sent me this today, he has written "The Gods of Money", "Seeds of Destruction" and more........Please read.

Syria, Turkey, Israel and a Greater Middle East Energy War By F. William Engdahl * 10 October 2012 On October 3, 2012 the Turkish military launched repeated mortar shellings inside Syrian territory. The military action, which was used by the Turkish military, conveniently, to establish a ten-kilometer wide no-man’s land “buffer zone” inside Syria, was in response to the alleged killing by Syrian armed forces of several Turkish civilians along the border. There is widespread speculation that the one Syrian mortar that killed five Turkish civilians well might have been fired by Turkish-backed opposition forces intent on giving Turkey a pretext to move militarily, in military intelligence jargon, a ‘false flag’ operation. Turkey’s Muslim Brotherhood-friendly Foreign Minister, the inscrutable Ahmet Davutoglu, is the government’s main architect of Turkey’s self-defeating strategy of toppling its former ally Bashar Al-Assad in Syria. According to one report since 2006 under the government of Islamist Sunni Prime Minister Recep Tayyip Erdoğan and his pro-Brotherhood AKP party, Turkey has become a new center for the Global Muslim Brotherhood. A well-informed Istanbul source relates the report that before the last Turkish elections, Erdogan’s AKP received a “donation” of $10 billion from the Saudi monarchy, the heart of world jihadist Salafism under the strict fundamentalist cloak of Wahabism. Since the 1950’s when the CIA brought leading members in exile of the Egyptian Muslim Brotherhood to Saudi Arabia there has been a fusion between the Saudi brand of Wahabism and the aggressive jihadist fundamentalism of the Brotherhood. The Turkish response to the single Syrian mortar shell, which was met with an immediate Syrian apology for the incident, borders on a full-scale war between two nations which until last year were historically, culturally, economically and even in religious terms, closest of allies. That war danger is ever more serious. Turkey is a full member of NATO whose charter explicitly states, an attack against one NATO state is an attack against all. The fact that nuclear-armed Russia and China both have made defense of the Syrian Bashar al-Assad regime a strategic priority puts the specter of a World War closer than most of us would like to imagine. In a December 2011 analysis of the competing forces in the region, former CIA analyst Philip Giraldi made the following prescient observation: NATO is already clandestinely engaged in the Syrian conflict, with Turkey taking the lead as U.S. proxy. Ankara’s foreign minister, Ahmet Davutoglu, has openly admitted that his country is prepared to invade as soon as there is agreement among the Western allies to do so. The intervention would be based on humanitarian principles, to defend the civilian population based on the “responsibility to protect” doctrine that was invoked to justify Libya. Turkish sources suggest that intervention would start with creation of a buffer zone along the Turkish-Syrian border and then be expanded. Aleppo, Syria’s largest and most cosmopolitan city, would be the crown jewel targeted by liberation forces. Unmarked NATO warplanes are arriving at Turkish military bases close to Iskenderum on the Syrian border, delivering weapons from the late Muammar Gaddafi’s arsenals as well as volunteers from the Libyan Transitional National Council who are experienced in pitting local volunteers against trained soldiers, a skill they acquired confronting Gaddafi’s army. Iskenderum is also the seat of the Free Syrian Army, the armed wing of the Syrian National Council. French and British special forces trainers are on the ground, assisting the Syrian rebels while the CIA and U.S. Spec Ops are providing communications equipment and intelligence to assist the rebel cause, enabling the fighters to avoid concentrations of Syrian soldiers. Little noted was the fact that at the same day as Turkey launched her over-proportional response in the form of a military attack on Syrian territory, one which was still ongoing as of this writing, the Israeli Defense Forces (IDF) undertook what was apparently an action to divert Syria’s attention from Turkey and to create the horror scenario of a two-front war just as Germany faced in two world wars. The IDF made a significant troop buildup on the strategic Golan Heights bordering the two countries, which, since Israel took it in the 1967 war, has been an area of no tension. The unfolding new phase of direct foreign military intervention by Turkey, supported de facto by Israel’s right-wing Netanyahu regime, curiously enough follows to the letter a scenario outlined by a prominent Washington neo-conservative Think Tank, The Brookings Institution. In their March 2012 strategy white paper, Saving Syria: Assessing Options for Regime Change, Brookings geo-political strategists laid forth a plan to misuse so-called humanitarian concern over civilian deaths, as in Libya in 2011, to justify an aggressive military intervention into Syria, something not done before this. The Brookings report states the following scenario: Israel could posture forces on or near the Golan Heights and, in so doing, might divert regime forces from suppressing the opposition. This posture may conjure fears in the Assad regime of a multi-front war, particularly if Turkey is willing to do the same on its border and if the Syrian opposition is being fed a steady diet of arms and training. This seems to be precisely what is unfolding in the early days of October 2012. The authors of the Brookings report are tied to some of the more prominent neo-conservative warhawks behind the Bush-Cheney war on Iraq. Their sponsor, the Saban Center for Middle East Policy, includes current foreign policy advisers to Republican right-wing candidate Mitt Romney, the open favorite candidate of Israel’s Netanyahu. The Brookings Saban Center for Middle East Policy which issued the report, is the creation of a major donation from Haim Saban, an Israeli-American media billionaire who also owns the huge German Pro7 media giant. Haim Saban is open about his aim to promote specific Israeli interests with his philanthropy. The New York Times once called Saban, “a tireless cheerleader for Israel.” Saban told the same newspaper in an interview in 2004, "I'm a one-issue guy and my issue is Israel." The scholars at Saban as well as its board have a clear neo-conservative and Likud party bias. They include, past or present, Shlomo Yanai, former head of military planning, Israel Defense Forces; Martin Indyk, former US Ambassador to Israel and founder of the pro-Israel Washington Institute for Near East Policy (WINEP), a major Likud policy lobby in Washington. Visiting fellows have included Avi Dicter, former head of Israel’s Shin Bet; Yosef Kupperwasser, former Head, Research Department, Israeli Defense Force's Directorate of Military Intelligence. Resident scholars also include Bruce Riedel, a 30 year CIA Middle East expert and Obama Afghan adviser; Kenneth Pollack, another former CIA Middle East expert who was indicted in an Israel espionage scandal when he was a national security official with the Bush Administration. Why would Israel want to get rid of the “enemy she knows,” Bashar al-Assad, for a regime controlled by the Muslim Brotherhood? Then Israel’s security would seemingly be threatened by the emergence of hard-line Muslim Brotherhood regimes in Egypt to her south and Syria to her North, perhaps soon also in Jordan. The geopolitical dimension The significant question to be asked at this point is what could bind Israel, Turkey, Qatar in a form of unholy alliance on the one side, and Assad’s Syria, Iran, Russia and China on the other side, in such deadly confrontation over the political future of Syria? One answer is energy geopolitics. What has yet to be fully appreciated in geopolitical assessments of the Middle East is the dramatically rising importance of the control of natural gas to the future of not only Middle East gas producing countries, but also of the EU and Eurasia including Russia as producer and China as consumer. Natural gas is rapidly becoming the “clean energy” of choice to replace coal and nuclear electric generation across the European Union, most especially since Germany’s decision to phase out nuclear after the Fukushima disaster. Gas is regarded as far more “environmentally friendly” in terms of its so-called “carbon footprint.” The only realistic way EU governments, from Germany to France to Italy to Spain, will be able to meet EU mandated CO2 reduction targets by 2020 is a major shift to burning gas instead of coal. Gas reduces CO2 emissions by 50-60% over coal. Given that the economic cost of using gas instead of wind or other alternative energy forms is dramatically lower, gas is rapidly becoming the energy of demand for the EU, the biggest emerging gas market in the world. Huge gas resource discoveries in Israel, in Qatar and in Syria combined with the emergence of the EU as the world’s potentially largest natural gas consumer, combine to create the seeds of the present geopolitical clash over the Assad regime. Syria-Iran-Iraq Gas pipeline In July 2011, as the NATO and Gulf states’ destabilization operations against Assad in Syria were in full swing, the governments of Syria, Iran and Iraq signed an historic gas pipeline energy agreement which went largely unnoticed amid CNN reports of the Syrian unrest. The pipeline, envisioned to cost $10 billion and take three years to complete, would run from the Iranian Port Assalouyeh near the South Pars gas field in the Persian Gulf, to Damascus in Syria via Iraq territory. Iran ultimately plans then to extend the pipeline from Damascus to Lebanon’s Mediterranean port where it would be delivered to EU markets. Syria would buy Iranian gas along with a current Iraqi agreement to buy Iranian gas from Iran’s part of South Pars field. South Pars, whose gas reserves lie in a huge field that is divided between Qatar and Iran in the Gulf, is believed to be the world’s largest single gas field. De facto it would be a Shi’ite gas pipeline from Shi’ite Iran via Shi’ite-majority Iraq onto Shi’ite-friendly Alawite Al-Assad’s Syria. Adding to the geopolitical drama is the fact that the South Pars gas find lies smack in the middle of the territorial divide in the Persian Gulf between Shi’ite Iran and the Sunni Salafist Qatar. Qatar also just happens to be a command hub for the Pentagon’s US Central Command, headquarters of United States Air Forces Central, No. 83 Expeditionary Air Group RAF, and the 379th Air Expeditionary Wing of the USAF. In brief Qatar, in addition to owning and hosting the anti-Al-Assad TV station Al-Jazeera, which beams anti-Syria propaganda across the Arab world, Qatar is tightly linked to the US and NATO military presence in the Gulf. Qatar apparently has other plans with their share of the South Pars field than joining up with Iran, Syria and Iraq to pool efforts. Qatar has no interest in the success of the Iran-Iraq-Syria gas pipeline, which would be entirely independent of Qatar or Turkey transit routes to the opening EU markets. In fact it is doing everything possible to sabotage it, up to and including arming Syria’s rag-tag “opposition” fighters, many of them Jihadists sent in from other countries including Saudi Arabia, Pakistan and Libya. Further adding to Qatar’s determination to destroy the Syria-Iran-Iraq gas cooperation is the discovery in August 2011 by Syrian exploration companies of a huge new gas field in Qara near the border with Lebanon and near to the Russian-leased Naval port of Tarsus on the Syrian Mediterranean. Any export of Syrian or Iranian gas to the EU would go through the Russian-tied port of Tarsus. According to informed Algerian sources, the new Syrian gas discoveries, though the Damascus government is downplaying it, are believed to equal or exceed those of Qatar. As Asia Times’ knowledgeable analyst Pepe Escobar pointed out in a recent piece, Qatar’s scheme calls for export of its huge gas reserves via Jordan’s Gulf of Aqaba, a country where a Muslim Brotherhood threat to the dictatorship of the King is also threatening. The Emir of Qatar has apparently cut a deal with the Muslim Brotherhood in which he backs their international expansion in return for a pact of peace at home in Qatar. A Muslim Brotherhood regime in Jordan and also in Syria, backed by Qatar, would change the entire geopolitics of the world gas market suddenly and decisively in Qatar’s favor and to the disadvantage of Russia, Syria, Iran and Iraq. That would also be a staggering negative blow to China. As Escobar points out, “it's clear what Qatar is aiming at: to kill the US$10 billion Iran-Iraq-Syria gas pipeline, a deal that was clinched even as the Syria uprising was already underway. Here we see Qatar in direct competition with both Iran (as a producer) and Syria (as a destination), and to a lesser extent, Iraq (as a transit country). It's useful to remember that Tehran and Baghdad are adamantly against regime change in Damascus.” He adds, “if there's regime change in Syria - helped by the Qatari-proposed invasion - things get much easier in Pipelineistan terms. A more than probable Muslim Brotherhood (MB) post-Assad regime would more than welcome a Qatari pipeline. And that would make an extension to Turkey much easier.” The Israeli Gas dilemma Further complicating the entire picture is the recent discovery of huge offshore Israeli natural gas resources. The Tamar natural gas field off the coast of northern Israel is expected to begin yielding gas for Israel’s use in late 2012. The game-changer was a dramatic discovery in late 2010 of an enormous natural gas field offshore of Israel in what geologists call the Levant or Levantine Basin. In October 2010 Israel discovered a massive “super-giant” gas field offshore in what it declares is its Exclusive Economic Zone (EEZ). The find is some 84 miles west of the Haifa port and three miles deep. They named it Leviathan after the Biblical sea monster. Three Israeli energy companies in cooperation with the Houston Texas Noble Energy announced initial estimates that the field contained 16 trillion cubic feet of gas—making it the world’s biggest deep-water gas find in a decade, adding more discredit to “peak oil” theories that the planet is about to see dramatic and permanent shortages of oil, gas and coal. To put the number in perspective, that one gas field, Leviathan, would hold enough reserves to supply Israel’s gas needs for 100 years. Energy self-sufficiency had eluded the state of Israel since its founding in 1948. Abundant oil and gas exploration had repeatedly been undertaken with meager result. Unlike its energy-rich Arab neighbors, Israel seemed out of luck. Then in 2009 Israel’s Texas exploration partner, Noble Energy, discovered the Tamar field in the Levantine Basin some 50 miles west of Israel’s port of Haifa with an estimated 8.3 tcf (trillion cubic feet) of highest quality natural gas. Tamar was the world’s largest gas discovery in 2009. Israel discovered huge gas in Levantine Basin with Noble Energy. Source: Noble Energy map At the time, total Israeli gas reserves were estimated at only 1.5 tcf. Government estimates were that Israel’s sole operating field, Yam Tethys, which supplies about 70 percent of the country’s natural gas, would be depleted within three years. With Tamar, prospects began to look considerably better. Then, just a year after Tamar, the same consortium led by Noble Energy struck the largest gas find in its decades-long history at Leviathan in the same Levantine geological basin. Present estimates are that the Leviathan field holds at least 17 tcf of gas. Israel went from a gas famine to feast in a matter of months. Now Israel faces a strategic and very dangerous dilemma. Naturally Israel is none too excited to see al-Assad’s Syria, linked to Israel’s arch foe Iran and Iraq and Lebanon, out-compete an Israeli gas export to the EU markets. This could explain why Israel’s Netanyahu government has been messing inside Syria in the anti-al-Assad forces. However, a Muslim Brotherhood rule in Syria led by the organization around Mohammad Shaqfah would confront Israel with far more hostile neighbors now that the Muslim Brotherhood coup by Egypt’s President Mohamed Morsi has put a hostile regime on Israel’s southern border. It is no secret that there is enmity bordering on hate between Netanyahu and the Obama Administration. The Obama White House and US State Department openly back the Muslim Brotherhood regime changes in the Middle East. Hillary Clinton’s meeting with Turkey’s Davutoglu in August this year was reportedly aimed at pushing Turkey to escalate its military intervention into Syria, but without direct US support owing to US election politics of wanting to avoid involvement in a new Middle East debacle. State Department Deputy Chief of Staff Huma Abedin has been accused by several Republican Congress Representatives of ties to organizations controlled by the Muslim Brotherhood. Dalia Mogahed, Obama’s appointee to the Advisory Council on Faith-Based and Neighborhood Partnerships, also a member of the US advisory council of the Department of Homeland Security, is openly linked to the Muslim Brotherhood and an open foe of Israel as well as calling for the toppling of Syria’s al-Assad. Obama’s Washington definitely seems to be backing the Muslim Brotherhood horse in the race for control of the gas flows of the Middle East. And the Russian role Washington is walking a temporary tightrope hoping to weaken al-Assad fatally while not appearing directly involved. Russia for its part is playing a life and death game for the future of its most effective geopolitical lever—its role as the leading natural gas supplier to the EU. This year Russia’s state-owned Gazprom began delivery of Russian gas to northern Germany via Nord Stream gas pipeline under the Baltic Sea from a port near St. Petersburg. Strategically vital now for the future role of Russia as an EU gas supplier, is its ability to play a strategic role in exploiting the new-found gas reserves of its former Cold war client state, Syria. Moscow has long been engaged in promoting its South Stream gas pipeline into Europe as an alternative to the Washington Nabucco pipeline which was designed to leave Moscow out in the cold. Already Gazprom is the largest natural gas supplier to the EU. Gazprom with Nord Stream and other lines plans to increase its gas supply to Europe this year by 12% to 155 billion cubic meters. It now controls 25% of the total European gas market and aims to reach 30% with completion of South Stream and other projects. Rainer Seele, chairman of Germany’s Wintershall, the Gazprom partner in Nord Stream, suggested the geopolitical thinking behind the decision to join South Stream: "In the global race against Asian countries for raw materials, South Stream, like Nord Stream, will ensure access to energy resources which are vital to our economy." But rather than Asia, the real focus of South Stream lies to the West. The ongoing battle between Russia’s South Stream and the Washington-backed Nabucco is intensely geopolitical. The winner will hold a major advantage in the future political terrain of Europe. Now a major new option of Syria as a major source for Russian-managed gas flows to the EU has emerged. If al-Assad survives, Russia will be in the position as savior to play a decisive role in developing and exploiting the Syrian gas. Israel, where Russia also has major cards to play, could theoretically shift to back a Russian-Syrian-Iraqi-Iran gas consortium were Israel and Iran to reach some modus vivendi on the nuclear and other issues, not impossible were the political constellation in Israel to change after the coming elections. Turkey, which is presently in a deep internal battle between Davutoglu and President Gül on the one side and Erdogan on the other, is dependent on Russia’s Gazprom for some 40% of gas to its industry. Were Davutoglu and his faction to lose, Turkey could play a far more constructive role in the region as transit country for Syrian and Iranian gas. The battle for the future control of Syria is at the heart of this enormous geopolitical war and tug of war. Its resolution will have enormous consequences for either world peace or endless war and conflict and slaughter. NATO member Turkey is playing with fire as is Qatar’s Emir, along with Israel’s Netanyahu and NATO members France and USA. Natural gas is the flammable ingredient that is fueling this insane scramble for energy in the region. • F. William Engdahl is author of Myths, Lies and Oil Wars. He may be contacted through .

Monday, February 27, 2012

Life is difficult, however, if we do nothing to make life better, than we are guilty of indifference!

Hi all,

I am sending you these links, as 99% of them are to do with Geo-engineering, Chemtrails and Haarp.

18 months ago, if you had presented these to me, I would have thought you mad. However, after 18 months of my own research and seeing Chemtrails with my own eyes, I now believe this is happening in our world.

What is tragic about Geo-engineering is that you and I, our families AND OUR CHILDREN are being adversely affected by the chemicals that are being sprayed from our skies. They are poisoning HUMAN BEING, the soil and our water supplies.

I am nobody, in that I am one human being. I do not have your power in our world, nor do I have influence, like you do.
All I know, is geo-engineering is immoral and wrong. It is killing you, me and our children. Yet, no one is doing a thing to prevent it!

When I was a child and learning about the 1st and 2nd world wars, I could not understand why the people of the day allowed these wars to happen. Now I know why! Apathy, ignorance and the killer, indifference! Well, I cannot be any of these human vices. Even if it means
danger to me personally.

You see, one day, I will meet my maker, just like you will and I truly want to stand before my maker and say, I did all I could do to make a positive difference in my world.
I can only do this, if I spread the information I have learnt in the last 18 months. Why am I doing this? Because I need to have a clear conscience that I did my best for me and
my fellow Human Beings, while I lived on Earth. I am not an important Human Being, in life’s terms. However, I am as important as every other Human Being to my maker.

Please don’t get me wrong here, I am not the most spiritual or religious of Human Beings, however, I do care and love the people of our world and the world God made for all of us.
You may already have decided I am a nut case and if you have, I am ok with that. I have ploughed a lonely furrow for the last 50 years of my life. I do not and have not followed “The Crowd”!
I am grateful I haven’t. I am grateful that God made me just as I am.

However, as you are in a position of power, my need is that you at least investigate Geo-engineering and why Geo-engineering is happening!
Plus and more importantly that you STOP geo-engineering happening over Ireland’s air space, like NOW!

I have a few theories as to why they are happening. However, you need to discover why, for yourself and to come to your own conclusions.
Even if one of these conclusions is that I am mad or whatever! In my truth, I question myself and what I’ve learnt, A LOT! However, the evidence on the internet cannot
all be wrong! Just read Revelations in the Bible. I am not a religious fanatic, but I do believe that it is the HUMAN BEING that is more IMPORTANT than money, position, status or
any such bull!

I would like to see my grandchildren, who have yet to be born. I am sure you would too. If you want health, safety and a fulfilling life for those you love, then look at these links.

Oh and by the way, the EU also has acknowledged the reality of Geo-engineering!

Just in case you missed it above!

Also radiation from Fukushima is huge and you need to protect your children and your loved ones as best you can from this radiation and yourselves.

Please do your own research, don’t believe one word I’ve written here, if that is your need. Check out for yourself what is happening Globally.

Oh and we need to STOP paying the bondholders, like NOW! Please start looking at the big picture here!



I sent the above email to these TD's;

Michael Noonan
Sean Barrett
Michael Conaghan
Micheál Martin
Aengus O'Snodaigh
Anthony Lawlor
Tom Hayes
Jonathan O'Brien
Pearse Doherty
Trevor O'Clochartaigh
Stephen Donnelly
Joe Higgins
Eamonn Gilmore
Vincent Gibbin
Willie O'Dea
Kevin Humphreys
Barry Cowen
Noel Coonan
Joan Collins
Alan Farrell
Finian McGrath
Robert Troy

Sunday, February 5, 2012

United we stand, divided we fall and we are falling................

Hi all,

I started doing research when a tutor of mine mentioned 2012 way back in 2010. He said it was the coming of a world full of love. Before my graduation that year, I started digging. The more I dug, the more I found.
Now you know, I am all about love, but what I discovered, is not about love. (Having said that, go look at the last 3 links I’ll add to this letter for you).

It is my belief that the information we need to wake up is out there & all we need to do is to look for the information. By the way, waking up I discovered isn’t just about doing so psychologically & emotionally! It is about waking up to all expressions of self! Waking up is painful as it breaks down our own illusions about ourselves & what we believe to be true.

However, the truth will set you free. Albeit painful at times! I wouldn’t be sending you these links unless I thought & believed there was truth in them. Now I believe if we do not take positive, mature & peaceful action & unite,
we will go through even more hardship, than we are going through now. Just step back and look at what is happening Globally in the economic world. Unelected Goldman Sachs people are now in Government in Greece & Italy! WHY?
For that matter why are the Irish Government paying them huge consultancy fee’s when they are some of the bondholders?!?

This link is really for Barry & as I work in this area it is for me too!

In my opinion, this will take the focus off the Gov.'s/Troika’s fraud of us! Think Police state, because social welfare fraud is NOT what they say it is. They use absurd figures that are makey uppy to get their figure of €600,000.00 fraud, seriously! Look at it logically, if there was that much fraud it means me and all my colleagues are not doing our job! Trust me, the majority of us are! Oh & Troika are behind this!




NB Dr. Nick Begich: HAARP, Secret Sciences & High Tech Mind Control 1/5 - YouTube

And NB too

Anonymous emails from air line staff

Their site


Always a great read




Swine Flu con


And did you know that a number of US Presidents are related to Queen Liz!

An Irish journalist

This is a good site Oh & start eating raw veg & even grow your own! Eat cherries & alkaline your bodies, these will assist your immune system to be stronger against the assault's our bodies are under. Organic Wheatgrass alkalises the body, but find out more about this yourselves.

Chemtrails, Haarp, Fluoridation of our water supply, vaccinations & the coming of monsanto seeds are to dumb us down & kill us off. These are the reasons for increased Autism, dementia, cancers, arthritis etc. Just look at all fizzy drinks & artificial sweeteners, they have a chemical in them called ASPARTAME. Break up this word and see the metaphor “As Par TAME” ! Don’t believe me, go do the research yourselves. I have spent the last 18 months researching this & it is time for action folks, because if we do not unite very soon, we will be very ill or dead!

I actually don’t mind if you all think I have gone mad, because I thought my own father mad for over 30 years when he spoke of the New World Order, I now believe him! In the last two days my research is bringing me to places that both scare me but also cause me to become angry, anger is my own bodies unique guide that will bring me into action for myself and I do need it’s energy! There seems to be a very strong relationship between the New World Order & the Nazi’s. Don’t shut down when you read this, question me, go seek out the truth for yourselves.

It was here I first looked & in a nut shell, there is to be 3 days of darkness this year, as there will be a pole shift. Ask yourself why someone would do the “zetatalk” paper, if there wasn’t some element of truth? Plus there are huge planet alignments this year. Go look for the evidence.

Kiesha Crowther habla sobre el 2012. SUBTITULADO EN ESPAñOL – YouTube

Also read the messages from Medjugorje

Medjugorje WebSite - Our Lady of Medjugorje Messages and Apparitions

I think it is the one dated the 25th September 2011 that says “Everything is falling apart” & it is.

There is a lot of information here, so take your time, as it may over whelm you.

I have been sending this information out for a long time now & it is not making a difference, in that no action is been taken. I’ve blogged about this

& I started an on-line meeting group, called The Gathering, so that we can take positive action for ourselves and it too is going no where! I’ve also written to Government & that has no impact whatsoever! I feel somewhat defeated, however, I know I now need to take action for myself. This will be the last email with links I will send to you all. (In truth, this is the first time some of you are getting these links!).

If any of you want to take your own action, here is a list of radio stations around Ireland, go spread it this way, if that is your choice!

RadioStationWorld - Ireland - Radio Station Websites

Mostly in my experience human beings are afraid to speak about this. This is THE BIG LIE folks, hence it is hard to believe. I know, I’ve lived it for 18 months now. I often question my own sanity, but why is there so much of this information out there

if this is a hoax? Why is there a Global financial crisis? Why did 9/11 happen? Why do the US want to now invade Iran? Why do the presidents of America & politicians & even the Pope last year talk about a New World Order? Ask yourself who gains from Global warming? Why we have little sunshine? Is it the 1% who will gain from all of this? Who are the 1%?

Would you believe this is not the way God intended the world to be! God did mean for us to wake up & shine our light of love. Now before your eyes really glaze over, I’ll finish. Please do look at these links & share this information.

Thank you all for being a unique part of my life, each of you has taught me much and for that I am grateful
For those of you who did show up to The Gathering meetings, thank you. I need to be clear here, The Gathering meetings have ended. (5 to 7 people showed up to the 2nd last meeting & 3 last Thursday night!).

My gratitude & sincere thanks to Joe @onlinmeetings (Twitter) & for hosting these meetings for free for me/us.

With love & hope,


P.S. This is an email I sent today.